This Helped Me Most
What I went through
Eleven months where I did everything correctly and felt nothing. I kept waiting for a dramatic turning point. There wasn't one.
What helped me
Two things, both boring. Getting outside within an hour of waking, even for four minutes. And telling one person the truth when they asked how I was. That second one changed more than anything.
What I wish I knew
The first sign of life isn't joy. For me it was mild irritation at a song I didn't like — an actual preference. I nearly missed it.
